Remembering Lilly

And Life Keeps Moving On 

(even when the world stands still).

 

At first I could only see from moment to moment, every second swelled with pain and purpose. Looking back I realize I literally had to convince myself to keep living, one breath at a time. I didn't want to live in a world without Lilly and truly only the promise that one day I won't have to kept me going. 

 

All color left my world. It wasn't black and white, it was nothingness. I didn't believe people who claimed it would get better and the pain would one day be more bareable. I was wrong, thank God, I was wrong. 

 

Slowly I could see glimpses of color in life. It was mostly thanks to my beautiful boy, but more than that I began to see that Lilly wasn't gone or forgotten. She has a place and a purpose in our family and in this life. 

 

Her life changed ours and countless more for the better. She is a precious soul, loved by our eternal Savior and living in ways she never could in the confines of an earthly body. She is forever our little girl, sister, grand-daughter, niece, cousin etc. And I for one will never stop telling the world her story, for there is purpose to her life and healing in remembrance.

                                                                                                             October 2013